Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Is it THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU??




There is a saying that love and death are the two uninvited guest in life, they can come when you least expect them. This Sunday morning I was happy and upbeat as usual as I had plans to catch a movie with my friend in theater. My upbeat mood just got a jerk when I got to know that our laundry man popularly known as ''dhobhi uncle'' is no more.

We knew him from last 10 years as he came everyday in our house to take and return the clothes after pressing them. We were so used to see him since the time I was in school, that now also I am not able to digest the news properly. We had fights with him as we didn't liked his work initially. We even told him to discontinue with work but he requested a lot to my father and ultimately he was again appointed but his pressing skills didn't improve much. The good thing in him was that he was a hard worker and his charges were not too expensive as compared to others. He was around 58 years old very thin and short but he always had a satisfied and happy look on his face. Other thing that I remember about him that he used to visit Vaishno devi Mandir (Jammu, Katra) every six months as he used to give us par-shad and show us the train ticket with a joy every time he had to visit that place.




The last day of his life:
He was fit and fine and was busy in doing his daily laundry work , suddenly he had a giddiness and in a moment he fell on floor. He was taken to nearby hospital but was declared brought dead. It was later revealed by hospital authorities that he had a brain hemorrhage a disease which doesn't come with any warning.

Nothing has changed in my life, I went to see the movie and enjoyed it too. But a strange thought came in mind that I will never see this person again in life..he has gone and gone forever....At that point of a time I felt that is it a right way to get death.....??
May be he could have visited his favorite place ''Vaishno devi'' before dying.
May be he could have spent his last time with family.
I am not aware about his wishes that he had as a person but still can't death tell us its arriving time so that we can plan accordingly as we plan everything in our life from marriage to our first job,etc, etc.

So much ironical it is...God let us plan everything but never tell us our end day as if he wants to keep that ultimate control with him..nevermind I am not here to challenge God rules. My mother always say to me that ''we (my parents) will die after some years then you will be alone'' may be she wants to make me aware about the facts of life...and indirectly telling me to settle down...don't know the reasons but fact remains a fact that death can come anytime.The Bible tells us God is absolutely sovereign over death and life. We have just as much control over our death as we had over our birth--none! Man does not decide who will live and who will die--God does. Man cannot live one second beyond the time God has determined, nor can he live one second less.

Relating the incident with the title of my my blog, at present I feel that life is only a journey and not a destination. So, enjoy it to the fullest and meet every person with love as you might be seeing him/her the last time in your respective life.....!

Lastly I want to share a song lines from a old hindi movie:
''Ek din bikh jaayga maatee ke maul..jag mein reh jaynge pyaare tere bol''

So...true!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

SEVEN RANDOM THINGS:


Its really difficult to write whats going in mind as I have got a very complex mind but

I will try to speak the truth:

  1. A dream that can come true: Life’s a journey but in few days from now I may witness a journey of my life. I am excited….very excited..very very excited….keeping my fingers crossed…lots of ifs and buts are still associated with the journey..but if the journey doesn’t come true I will not stop dreaming about it….but I am really positive and excited too….!
  2. Smile an everlasting smile: Well that’s always the first thing in mind but due to the dream journey it became second…no points for guessing whose smile I am talking about..yes that’s my sum1 special….her smile is so engaging that I can see it 24 x 7 and still wonder from where she has got that smile…I hope she keeps on smiling and I keep on wondering.
  3. Yes she is beautiful: ….an angel to me..a beautiful girl…can do nythn but can’t stop thinking about her.
  4. I lost my mind: My life is brilliant , my love is pure, I lost my mind..y..i m not sure…I don’t know what to do….!!1
  5. The Truth knocks the door: Yes my mind says its time to face the truth…..I will never be with her…but she remains in my heart…&.I am her.
  6. What it takes to make her happy: Whenever I saw her..I saw her smiling…well unknowingly she taught me to be happy always….but how can I give her extra happiness…I can just pray and request….Oh God plz make her happy alwaysssssssss!!! She’s wonderful.
  7. Sum1 plz pinch me: Out of the dream world…(well for me dat was real world nd d only world) my mind thinks about how to make money and get financial independence, I think about food all the time, my third love table tennis, beautiful and sexy girls are always in my mind, how to upgrade myself spiritually…and finally how to live life alone….if sum1’s not there with me….uhhhhhhhhhh…lot of things r in my mind….I mentioned the complex nature of my mind..nyways..done my duty….sleeping now…all d ppl in this world plz take care!!!

@rohini Ji: thanks for tagging….I don’t have enough followers so can’t tag ny1 rgt now.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Life a journey or a destination?: Its time to break the chakravyuh…….

Life a journey or a destination?: Its time to break the chakravyuh…….

Its time to break the chakravyuh…….






9 years back ….I had a dream in my eyes...d month of march gave me the new path to explore life …new dreams….new wishes and an eagerness to live life big size… I was witnessing a fresh feel of freedom and control as if I can get what I want…..
It has been a full circle now…but I still remember the freedom that I always carved for… …this post is not about what I achieved in these 9 years, or my disappointments over the things that I have not able to get…but its about a firm belief that took 9 years to be as firm as it should be…

The dream…
I woke up 2 c a beautiful bird welcoming me….
Saw snowfall all around the garden’s tree…
I took my camera to capture the scenic spree…
My heart filled with joy to witness life so free…
My happiness was forcing me to scream …
Till I got to know it was just a dream!!!



Yes, the reality pushed me back and the dream got over and I felt as if my sleep has got a wound … and I chose what others choose…entering into a circle of uncertainties as if there is no other way … a path so well defined by society over the years…everybody takes it …so did I…never thinking how will I return if I don’t like what I have chosen .. …but over the years I never had these questions in mind…it has been just a straight simple way to do things..even if you don’t like them u still do it coz it’s the only well defined path…a path made by our society…






But the truth is d dream never left me coz that is the truth itself…d truth to be free and do whatever I really wish to…n ….It has been nine years I am stuck into this chakrvyuh..... but now its over…I break this relationship between society and me…and I tie a new knot with truth…I don’t want to be a hypocrite just to fulfill what society demands….yes its tougher living against the society…but that dream of perfect life never turns into reality.. either you have to cheat urself or others…coz dat dream is the truth itself nd it can never be fulfilled if you are not true to yourself..you are just hoping against hope…





After 9 years I decide to break the chakaravyuh and live for freedom..wherein no society can bother me ….now the question arises do I have the courage to be out of it..do I really know the path unknown ..these questions traumatize me but these 9 years I have lived getting into it now its time to get out of it…coz I want truth to prevail in life ….



Now lets see who will win….I want to stop here…I will bring an end to so called perfect path given by society..and not wait till the time nature laugh at all of us…I will not give this freedom to nature and find my own path of freedom!!!

Its really the time to break the chakaryvuh..…..!!!

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